Shy
to Say
It is impossible to live alone in this
world, we need to have a relationship with the other. To make a sense, to share
our feeling, in one group in one community which can bring warm, feel close,
friendly, solidarity, and togetherness. In Bali there is a little group, but
gives the big influence in one area called “Seka Teruna”. The members are the
teenager in that area. As a teenager we need to know and aware in the next time
about the real life in community. One of routine activity in this group is held
the meeting. Usually we talk about our plan or event that will be held to
cerebrate the holy day or the birthday of the group. To make all the members
know that will be held a meeting the head of the group hit the “kulkul” that is not good way for me. I stay far from my
hometown now so I cannot hear the voice of it. The way how they give
information to the other is not enough for me. I would say something about it,
but I choose keep my suggestion because I do not enough bravery to speak.
Last month I came to my hometown. I
asked my friend about the activity of the group and he said that he didn’t
know. As I know the group usually held meeting every one month on Saturday or
Sunday. When we want to hold meeting in afternoon may be at 5 or 6pm we will
hear the sound of the kulkul. The
problem also happened with the sign of it, my house is far from the place to hold
the meeting, so that I cannot hear the sign of it. My friend beside my house
also did not hear the sound so that we conclude that this month do not hold
meeting in Bale Banjar. I still remember that time was Saturday.
The next day in the evening I wanted
to buy some food and in the journey I met my friend. He asked about my
condition study in Singaraja and I said fine. We talked much and made a joke
with the people who passed the road. In the middle of our conversation he asked
me when I arrive at home. I said yesterday. From what I said he asked why you
did not attend the meeting yesterday. I felt confuse about what he said. I did
not hear the sign to attend it. From what happened to me I felt this was not
clear information. I stayed home, I wanted to attend it, but I did not know
where it held and not information about it. In that time I felt disappointed to
the manager of the group. He said the members who attend it just rest than a
half of the members. I concluded that they also did not know that held meeting
yesterday.
I still talked with my friend. I
said that this was not clear to give information to the other by the kulkul sign. I have opinions to overcome
this problem. The first is by sending the message to all members. Second by
making a group in Facebook which invite all the members and tell the
information about when we will be held the meeting. By doing this we all know information
clearly do not worry about the kulkul
sound if we cannot hear or because we study or work in other place which far
away from our hometown. It is not problem if we cannot attend the meeting, but
at least we know what the meeting had discussed before by sharing it in social
media. I think it is very best way to make all the members can attend it, but
in that time I do not have brave to say it because I fell very shy to the other
members. I feel not confident to the head of the group. I do not want the other
members think that he must be changed by me to be a leader of the group. So I
just keep my suggestion until now.
Now I continue my study in
University. I find different by the situation in my hometown. I know important
is an information to us. Here I find the clear information. The head of the
class will tell us if some schedule change to the other day or if the lecture
can not attend the class. He can manage the situation so we just enter the
class without any worried about the information. The technology always changes
to the modern one. I am very happy to get information early by sending a
massage and reply it if we do not understand about it. Sometimes I asked myself
why I did not tell my suggestion to make them know that we need clear
information about it. I know that I am not confident person. I do not have
bravery to speak up, but there is different now. If I know when will be held
the meeting and I find the same situation, I will say it to make all the
members get clear information not only hears about the sign of the kulkul.
My friend in my hometown also agrees
with my suggestion. He also feels what I feel. He stays home and does nothing.
He also wants to attend it, but do not know when will be. It is like we do not
aware about what happened in our village or do not know the new information
about what will be held in the future. We are afraid that someday we need the
neighbor help, but they do not come because we never attend the social meeting
in this group. My friend is same as me do not have any bravery to speak in
front of the audience. May be we are much better to say it directly to the head
of the group. By doing it the other members do not know that we have a
suggestion to the group so our feeling to feel shy can be decreased by talking
directly.
My friend and I have the same
problem with the situation. Now I stay far from my hometown. Sometimes I asked
him and he just knows a little bit. They way how they give information to the
other is not enough for me. I would say something about it, but I choose to
keep my suggestion because I do not have enough bravery to speak directly in
front of the audience. My friend also works far from his hometown so that he
and I still did not get the clear information about our group condition in our
hometown.
